I'm the first to admit I'm a biblioholoic: I can't stop buying books. I've been like this for years - I've always coveted books and once I started work a sizeable proportion of my income has been spent on them. Which is one of the reasons why I'm so sad at the news of the UK Borders going into receivership yesterday.
But it isn't the main reason. I visited the very first Borders in the UK the day after it opened with my best friend, who's a biblioholic too. We'd been to a Library conference in Reading and came back via London, just to have a look. She'd shown me the article in that week's Bookseller about the book-buying revolution it was going to bring about: I'd dreamed one day all bookshops would be like this - vast, stocked from floor to ceiling, filled with the aroma of freshly brewed coffee, offering a dazzling array of media in every form. However, that day I was stolidly unimpressed. I remember as we emerged several hours later, like kids who'd had too much candy, that I commented about it being all 'pile it high and flog it cheap' and that there should be more to a bookstore than that... I can be a bit of a book-snob at times. It hadn't stopped me buying a couple of things though.
However, I was quickly won over. I even forgave them when they bought out the Books etc chain (which, to me, was the very best big bookshop chain ever!) Why did I soften? Well, like Mr Darcy's first comments about Lizzie Bennett, I realised I might have been a bit hasty. There was much that was lovable about Borders, not least the fact that it stayed open late and served wonderful coffee and sold books imported from America you couldn't get elsewhere.
Over the years, I've amassed a whole range of Borders memories from branches country wide, notably Birmingham, Glasgow, York, Central London, Islington on a peaceful summer's morning during the bomb scares of 2005, buying books with my 'team' at our local Teeside branch for the school library, and the two around Newcastle. Ben (one of the old 'library crew') and I used to spend lunchtimes fantasising about how you could spend an entire day in Borders and never need to leave. We had it planned like a military operation. Shame we never actually tried it...
It's not all pleasant memories, mind you. There was a Christmas shopping trip to York some years ago with a gentleman acquaintance which I thought might be the beginning of something beautiful but which ended up as something messily destructive. But even that had its up-side: it was in that Borders we both discovered Edward Gorey (and we both managed to stay entranced by him if not with each other!) and it was in my local Borders that I wept into a succession of cinnamon lattes and bored my long suffering best friend with all the angst he'd generated! She has her own Borders memories and reasons to mourn its demise...
Sadly, Borders has been a victim of that 'pile em high and sell em cheap' philosophy because Amazon and co do it so much better. And I hold my hand up - I've done it too - checked out a book in Borders and then gone home and ordered it on line (although I also have a strict policy of NEVER leaving any bookshop without making a purchase!) In recent years too, since the split from the US company, the choice of stock, presentation and promotion has sometimes left a lot to be desired. In August in Oxford Street we passed that former flagship store where they were holding a closing down sale and I wondered then about the future. Now it seems it's going the way of those other great loves of mine - Dillons, Heffers, Sherratt and Hughes, Ottakers, James Thin, Claude Gill, The Penguin Bookshops, Thornes, Mawson Swan and Morgan, Hills... all bookshops, all gone.
I was last in Borders on Monday night. I sank a Dark Cherry Mocha in Starbucks, bought a couple of books for work. There was an air of sadness about the place which was distressing. I read on the internet this morning the receivers have announced a huge sale - basically a closing down sale - with big discounts on the remaining stock. I love a bargain book. But I won't be going. I think I'd prefer to remember it as it was.