Where did my weekend go?



Mary's philosophy on a WW2 propaganda poster courtesy of the keep calm o matic website!

It's late Sunday night.  I've spent eight hours today writing an essay for my course... and then I scrapped it.  It needs to be submitted on Wednesday and I'm not sure how I'm going to manage to do it, to be honest, but it just wasn't good enough to hand in.  I'm beginning to have serious doubts about whether doing this course was a good idea: I think I've probably bitten off more than I can chew.  I love the reading and the research but I haven't got the time to do it properly. My confidence has been badly knocked by the last assessment and I'm starting to think I'm just not cut out for this after all.  Perhaps it would be better to walk away and just let it be.  I'm commited to the end of the academic year, but come September, I may be better to just walk away from it, cut my losses and admit I wasn't up to it after all.  Maybe if work was different, maybe if I had more time and energy, maybe if I'd done it a few years ago things would have been different.  Or maybe not.  Who knows.  As it is, I suspect this will be another 'something else I've almost done right, but not quite'!  Story of my life!!  Still, the kitchen is almost finished and it is looking good.  I should be grateful for small bonuses!